Born into a religiously divided family, I started off life torn between my father’s Catholicism and my mother’s Islamic beliefs. Of course, both religions condemn homosexuality, so when I realised I was a lesbian at 14, I didn’t know where to turn to. Coming out to any side of my family would mean certain doom, so I tried to suppress it. I started dated boys every which way, in the hopes that my gay feelings would somehow disappear. But there was no use. I loved girls and there was nothing I could do about it.
At 15 I fell in love for the first time with one of my classmates at a Catholic school. Everything was fine until her parents found our love letters (cheesy, I know) and told the school that I was perverting their daughter. I got expelled for “homosexual activity”. That’s when I slipped into a wave of depression. I was suffering hard; I had suicidal thoughts and was harming myself regularly. 2 years later I decided that enough was enough.
I became rebellious, and I started to flaunt my sexuality immensely. I attended my first pride at 16, kissed girls in public and posted my gay pride on every social networking site I had. I started to get better, and I was happy again. What was the point in hiding who I was if it meant I was unhappy?
I came out to my mother, who still believes I’m going to change and prays that I’ll find God again, and she advised me not to mention it to my father, who still hasn’t a clue. But I don’t care anymore, if he finds out he finds out. All my cards are laid out on the table for everyone to know. My happiness and comfort in my own skin is more important than anything anyone has to say about my life choices. All my friends know, and anyone I meet finds out almost instantly. I have support from everyone around me, which makes the whole family situation a lot less important.
I’m a 19 year old lesbian living in London and I’m fucking proud! 🙂 by Ramona.
Thank you so much for sharing this story – difficult times survived and your story will no doubt help anyone in a similar situation to know that it will get easier and better- The Outing xx
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